Wednesday 31 July 2013

Only what You plan

This has been my prayer today.

Only what has my name upon it
In heavens treasure store
Only that would I desire
Nothing less but nothing more
For that which you have marked as mine
Will only ever bless
Whilst other things that I might seek
May bring only distress
And I believe that you Oh God
Are interested in me
And I’m convinced your one desire
Is to delight in me
So only what you’ve named as mine
Only what you’ve planned
All the treasures that you have
Within your mighty hand
These only would I seek today
These only will be mine
And I will trust that you know best
Oh God make my will, thine.

Karen Holmes

July 31st 2013

Healing

Healing is laughter
Healing is tears
Healing is talking
And sharing our fears
Healing is streams
And mountains so high
Healing is holding my hand
When I cry
Healing is stillness
and days spent with friends
Healing’s forgiveness
And making amends
Healing is rainfall
At last after drought
Healing is dancing
And fooling about
Healing is love
A hug and a kiss
Healing is being with
A loved one you’ve missed
Healing is praying
And walking alone
Healing is sharing the things that we own
Healing is touching a life full of pain
Bringing a smile and laughter again
Healing expressed in so many small ways

Healing should flow through our lives every day.

Karen Holmes
July 31st 2013

Pebbles

Pebbles.

All sizes, all colours, some roughened edges, some very smooth
All mixed together, all rubbing shoulders with all the others as they move
With tide and waves and sea, with folk like you and me
As we picked out the ones that called to us.

All changing, constant movement displaced by shifting sands
Picked up and turned around, examined closely by oh so many different hands
Some taken home to keep, some thrown back to the deep
His vast creation that somehow calls to us.

And as we sit, allowing nature to enthral us
We too are moulded, edges smoothed, and strivings eased
We find redemption in crashing movement
And in the peacefulness we hear God’s own reprieve
His voice resounding on the horizon as sunlight bounces upon the waves
As darkness deepens and thoughts find stillness
Our world is suddenly embraced in love and grace
And when we rise, we leave the chains that bound us
We move more closely with that powerful force
For nature demonstrates the power, the truth, the greatness
Of heaven’s king, the one eternal, mighty source.


For we're all different, all mixed together, but if we let Him mould and shape us to His will
He will be faithful, enrich and change us, if we will only find a moment to be still
And let creation speak, and hear the call to us
To be that new creation we are meant to be
Then we we'll be unafraid of waves that crash and break
For God is in control of earth and sky and sea

So take my hand oh God and let me ever move
In the direction that you mapped out from the start
take my whole being now, my soul, my thoughts, my goals
And nurture only what you've planted in my heart.
Will you come stand with me and hear creations call
Will you throw off the things that hinder and ensnare
And like the pebbles, we will move as He directs
Upheld, supported always by His loving care.

Karen Holmes
July 31st 2013


Thursday 25 July 2013

The Real Me

Some years ago I wrote a poem called "The Real Me" and felt at the time that I'd written it for somebody else.  I now believe it was also about me.  My few days in Brighton reminded me of it and I have now written an updated version.  Here is the original

Take me to the city, lose me in the crowd
Silence my emotions with music played too loud
Numb my pain with one more drink for no one knows me here
Another stranger smiling with artificial cheer

Help me put my mask on, hold it firm in place
There's too much vulnerability displayed upon my face
I'll say my lines and play my part
To hide the pain within my heart

Let me act on life's great stage
Play pantomime until old age 
And one day I might dare review
My days, my years, my whole life span
Will you then tell me who I am?
Or who I was, once used to be
Before I lost the real me.



And here is the one I wrote last night

Take me to the city, introduce me to the crowd
When emotions surface, we'll share stories and be proud
Pain is eased and somehow truth is visible and clear
Together we are stronger and our smile is more sincere

Help me take my mask off, give me no hiding place
Permission has been granted for me to show my face
The laughter and the tension, the longings of my heart
Are valid and acceptable, my journey to impart.

Let me dance on life's great stage
Enjoy my role until old age
And when I take my final bow
And credits roll for one last time
Let it be my life I have lived
And may my legacy then be
that I embraced the real me.

Karen Holmes 
24th July 2013